another grey day to waste away.

so, here i sit. not really doing anything productive other than making this blog. adding one more that i will undoubtedly ignore. no, wait, i am doing laundry. waiting for the first load to finish. that is my big accomplishment for today. other than my doctors appointment. they stuck me with a needle again. i hate needles, terrified. so how is it that i can be practically obsessed with death and the like, yet be so fearful of any injury to my body?